FR Stuff + I'm not dead

I haven't drawn much at all aside from a half dozen doodles in roughly 3-6 months.
Depression has gotten worse. Will to draw is often missing entirely. Rarely checking my inbox.
I look at art from others, wishing I could draw, but thinking to myself,
*I wish I could still draw. I used to do it. I miss it. But it's gone now...*.
I'm not even kidding. I wish I was.

I had purchased Skyrim 3+ months ago. Played 13 hours total in 3 weeks. Felt lonely. Realized the whole game is lonely and although it's an impressive game, it's really...lonely. Limited. Not as "freeform" as I guess I hoped it was. I was unsatisfied.
_{Maybe I will play it when feeling like my soul isn't so broken.}

And then I started playing Flight Rising. It's just about all I've been doing every day for 3 months.
I became a shopaholic for dragons and never managed to earn more than 200kt the whole time because I kept fucking blowing it all on every dragon I thought was vaguely pretty.
And then someone gifted me a fancy thing, and I decided to sell it.
Now I'm finally making treasure. Best decision.

I'm still working my way up, not really playing much else, doing much else. Talking to people is more difficult most days. That's a painful and sad thing to admit, since I like talking to people so much. I miiiiiiiiiiiight be ever so slightly feeling better lately? It's hard to tell. I know lots of my friends are like, "Aw, jeep, I miss your art. No, really. I do. :c" and I wish it was just a case of "ug. 2 lazy 2 draw". That feeling would always just go away when a friend would ask about something or request a thing, or I got a sudden idea. But I haven't had a lot of ideas for a while, or so it feels like sometimes.



If anyone comments on this dev, please bear in mind that it's possible I may not comment.
Chances that I read your comments are 10000%.
Chances that I leave your comments in my inbox, rereading them for a week is 500%.
Chances that I'll respond enthusiastically like my old self? 50/50. My hormones will flip a coin most days. lol

Panga, Berognon, Pugsley © J.R.Parrish
Snappers and the classy black portable pool satin tunic © #FlightRising