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UPDATE: Getting better, all the time

Journal Entry: Mon Jun 9, 2014, 2:29 AM


Slow progress, as it has been for a year now, but I'm improving a tiny bit, in some ways.
It's turned out that my once passionate hate of tumblr because of artists leaving DA was a self-fulfilling prophecy.
I've technically "left" DA, though in truth, I just drop by here once or twice a week to see if anyone's left me messages.
I have nearly 3000 devs stacking up though. lol

My "therapy", aka Flight Rising, plus my 90% Flight Rising blog on tumblr has been more healing than DA could ever hope to be anymore.
I've got 625 followers as of today, most of them active (believe it or not), and in the corner of that community, I've become a familiar face to many. My character creation skills, headcanon abilities and art skills are being nurtured, much to my regular surprise. I'm not a nervous nobody there, and I don't feel dwarfed by artists better than myself. They exist all over the place of course, but there's direct conversation between them and myself that can happen much more easily than on DA. Or at least that seems to be how it feels.

 Every form of art in every quality is loved and enjoyed, feedback is prevalent and readily given if asked for. 
There's no cloud of shame in the FR community for being an artist of scribbles - scribbles are well loved!
There's no theft of the art, because everyone watches so closely, it's not tolerated.

What surprises me is that this is really just a fandom I've involved myself in, which is the opposite of what my creative works always stand for. But... like I've learned from friends I've known on DA over the years, sometimes you just have a big emotional void that needs mended, and following along with someone else's project can help fill it up for a while. And I suppose the reason I'm also into it is because it's still technically a very small community. The site just celebrated it's first year anniversary, and much to my surprise, I've been able to collect in-game items that went as far back as just about when they opened, before I was even around. 
Sure, it's all just pixels and sprites, but it's satisfying enough, artistic enough and the concepts are open to user interpretation to get creative with where the staff leaves gaps, and I'm apparently very good at suggesting new ideas. 

I created 2 pieces of art this week.
While that might not be anything at all to you guys, or even my old self, it's a fucking hell of a lot more than I've been able to do in over a year since depression set in. It's a sign that I'm starting to improve.

At least a little bit better.

FR is kickstarting my attempts to draw again, and I've got a line starting to form of people willing to commission me...unlike DA, where choices are endless and I have no hope of being noticed.

2am journal is a wee bit ranty and sleepdrunk. Apologies if I come off too blunt anywhere. x3

  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: M83
  • Playing: Flight Rising
  • Eating: Health food: Puffcorn & tootsie rolls
  • Drinking: Cherry coke & water

Need to get some short stories (chapter like segments) out of my head. Can't pick which to aim for. Need direction. Halp. 

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loserfacerochelle Featured By Owner May 10, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
wait wut. you... put everything in storage. wut.
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Jerepasaurus Featured By Owner May 11, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Yes, temporarily. For my emotional health for the time being. It may only be another few weeks or a few months before I bring things out again. I haven't decided yet. It mainly has to do with the fact I'm currently only visiting DA a few times a week right now and that I'd like to continue trying to work on kicking depression a little more before I come back.
And when I do come back, I'm probably going to be culling a number of random watchers and people that I don't know so that I can feel a little more comfortable. 

I was planning to post a journal in the next few days to update and explain some of this, so keep an eye open for it. ♥
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loserfacerochelle Featured By Owner May 11, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
I hope everything works out. Kick depressions butt!!
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Valravna Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
*lurkpoke*
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sparkbearer Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014  Professional Photographer
Your webcam GIF is making me laugh. His sad little squishy cute face ;3;
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Jerepasaurus Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
He kind of reminded me of...me. :'D Just this awkward pudgy thing that wants to be something better some day. ♥
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LMAO AWWWW ahahahahahah
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Thanks for the birthday cake pal! =D OM NOM NOM NOM NOM
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Jerepasaurus Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome. XD ♥
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:dance:
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MatesLaurentiu Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you for faving my tutorial, I hope you'll find it useful. :)
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your webcam is perfect XD
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Boh! Just saying hi. 
Thanks a lot for the help. :D
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:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

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